A Few Words On Pornography Addiction (No-Fap)

I just ended a seventeen day No-Fap streak. I thought peaking would allow me to cheat the system but unfortunately I went insane with orgasmic vigor and spilled milk all over the place. So yeah, peaking is indeed relapsing and you should avoid it. 

... if that wasn't already clear. Because it kind of was. I really relapsed like ten days ago if we're bein real here.

I'm still contemplating whether the orgasmic event will affect the way I am today and next week. I've come to the conclusion that I do not know...

 I did get something very nice out of this experience though. So it wasn't all for nut - I mean naught. Before I came up here to work, I pulled up a piece I wrote about No Fap during the last couple of days of my first streak. It was inspiring. It actually inspired me to fess up to my addiction on Twitter. (But honestly no one I know in real life follow me on Twitter so I didn't actually fess up to shit.) 

The writing really came from a place where you could tell I knew the nature of pornography addiction and how to defeat it. 

The shiniest gem I found in the writing was this - "You don't defeat addiction by sitting around thinking that you will. You beat addiction by doing all sorts of other things that you aren't addicted to. You beat addiction by becoming so busy that you have no time to indulge it's woes. 

And you become prey to addiction by sitting around thinking that you're stronger than it instead of actively fighting it. Let me tell you something. That's addiction whispering in your ear. 

It has you right where it wants you.

 In my case sitting around aimlessly browsing memes in the bathroom thinking "I can fight these urges." is how it always starts. Little do I know that I'm playing right into my addiction's hands by unnecessarily bringing the phone into the bathroom.

You have to fight addiction with EVERYTHING within you if you want to defeat it."

I feel like I somehow knew a lot more back then than I do right now about No-Fap. This just goes to show that sometimes when we seek to find answers on the outside, we already have the answers within ourselves.

We just have to be willing to search hard enough.

Shalom.